trustfelled | come out of hiding, i'm right here beside you

come out of hiding, i'm right here beside you

[A while after the execution has ended, everyone will find a simple note slipped under their door.]

If you don't want to be alone after everything that's happening, some of us will be in the dining room. Even if you decide not to come, please remember that you aren't alone here.

[The note isn't signed, but the handwriting is feminine and neat.

For anyone who decides to come, there's a good array of food laid out on the table. There are some small and simple cakes, cookies, and pastries, a healthy amount of okonomiyaki, okayu, and other Japanese dishes (with a focus on rice and eggs), along with curry. In addition, there are pancakes, and a large pot of soup. It looks like a few people collaborated to make enough food for everyone here.

Just like the meal they shared together earlier in the week, the candles from the storage room lend a more peaceful light than the fluorescent lights above.]

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My maids did often find the detail to be a little bit of a hassle, I'm told. They also needed to work with the guards. [ She shakes her head, laughing a little as she tugs down on collar, to show the crest around her collarbone ] Though this does prove it's a little silly.

[ Still a dream... but she had an active plan for it. She nods a little, smiling... until she doesn't/

She gestures at some other scarring around her neck and shoulders ]

If there is, I don't know it. My missing arm stood out more, but those scars were on my body when I awoke here as well, but not not before.

Hm. I had a conversation with Transmitter-san where she told me that you'd more or less remember what happened in time. Presumably.

[ She was as non-committal to that response as she was about most everything else. ]

I had wondered if they were some kind of battle scars... something you picked up in your travels.

[ She runs her fingers along them, trying to determine if they're all a consistent size and depth... ]

Anyway, it's your turn.

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I do have some scars from battle or my training. But most of these more visible ones are new. ... Yes though, I had heard something similar, and Wesker confirmed that sort of memory damage is possible, at least in his world.

[ The scars are not fully uniform. Most of them aren't terribly deep though - more like they appear to be the result of lacerations which got a little infected and couldn't heal properly. Of course, some are deeper, but.

... She's go Tsubasa feeling up her thighs. Weird. ]

Honestly, my "travels" have barely started.

What sort of position is "Class President?"

It's possible in mine as well, though it's hardly something common. It gets dramatized a fair bit, but amnesia is a real, and serious problem, with many potential causes. Unfortunately, treatments tend to match the cause, but if Transmitter-san says time will clarify things, we don't have much of a choice but to take her word at face value.

[ She looks back up at her. ]

Consider a classroom made up of around thirty or so students. Each of those students has their own problems and concerns, and as class president, my role is to act as a sounding board and a mediator for them, as well as to know who to talk to in the case of an issue that requires serious attention. I work very closely with the student council, a larger administrative body, in order to make sure that my class and their ideas are being conveyed and recognized by the faculty and the rest of the school. I'm also in charge of organizing the class events, in cases where we would run one, and in making sure the other members of the student body are taking their studies seriously. It's a multi-faceted role, one that requires me to be aware of my class and their circumstances, but it's one I take pride in.

...Biggest turn-off, in a person. What sort of qualities do you dislike?

[ Notably, Nachetanya's lips press together a little tighter at the idea of needing to wait. Of time. But that passes quickly, instead taking in the response. She... looks interested, frankly, and is grinning a little by the end. ]

So that's yet another role where you are collecting and analyszing information. And why you think you can connect the ideas that all the people here have. That's interesting, Tsubasa!

[ As for the question... Hmmm. ]

I think... [ She taps a finger on her cheek ] Unless you meant physical... I think that the greatest one for me would be to find someone to be myopic.

I guess you can say that I need to "assimilate" everyone's opinions, and work out a solution that's both efficient and accommodating towards as many people as possible.

[ She chuckles, at her little quip. ]

I was willing to accept either physical or personality traits, but, myopic...that's a fitting response. Not a fan of someone who's narrow-minded... I can understand that well.

Yes. [ Though... she seems to consider a moment before clarifying, ] I cannot help but admire ambition, and the drive to achieve those goals. I suppose you could even say that I'm stuck in the future. So to me, it always seems sad to see people trapped by the present, or... the past. Arietta's need for vengeance, for example. I'm not sure if that could traditionally be called myopic, but to me, that can't constitute "ambition" or even "a dream." It's much closer to a mere "duty," which is nothing to live for.

[ She hums, and sighs. She looks tired. ]

... What of your, Tsubasa. What do you dislike?

[ The position probably isn't helping matters, either. Maybe she should lay down? ]

Stuck in the future, you say? That's an interesting perspective. One you don't often see. It's far more common for people to be shackled by their pasts, or to live in the moment. I think to call a fixation on vengeance, or even justice, a bit myopic, is sound in its own way.

[ The difference between ambition and duty, or debts to be repaid...

Still, the question gives her pause. A trait in someone that she actually dislikes...the more she considers it, the more she actually draws a blank. ]

...I don't think I have one.

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[ It's true, the position is a little strange. She should, perhaps, change it. But especially when Tsubasa traced her scars, she didn't want to. Still, that response... ]

... I should have seen that coming, that you can accept all things. [ Her smile seems oddly fond at that. ]

[ It might not be something that so urgently needs to be changed. At least for the moment, Tsubasa isn't malcontent. ]

You make it sound like I'm some kind of paragon, when you put it like that. It's hardly that sort of thing. I just believe that the line between positive and negative traits can be rather thin.

[ Though she appreciates the smile. ]

Ah, yes, it's my turn, right...you said you live in the future, right? So, what's something you've always wanted to try?

[ Nachetanya's smile turns a little bit impish, away from the fondness. And her hand reaches out, to brush back Tsubasa's bangs a little unnecessarily. She ... ]

So does that mean that you could consider my faults to be positive because their mine?

[ Without giving her time to answer, though!! ]

Though to keep up the game, my answer ought to be "falling in love" or "sex," shouldn't it...

So you admit it's a game after all, then!

[ Is that really the part of that she should be latching onto, here? ]

It's not nice to play with people's hearts, Nachetanya. Certainly not the way to go about falling in love.

Oh no, did I?!

[ She leans down a little now, getting closer to Tsubasa's face with her own.Her lips seem to puff out a little. ]

If I kissed you, would that be a good enough retraction for you to forget?

[ In a rare moment of embarrassment, at the closeness of their faces, Tsubasa gulps and looks away, her arms giving out behind her as her upper body starts to sink into the mattress. ]

A-amnesia doesn't work that way, Nachetanya. Of all the causes I've read, getting kissed is not even close to one of them.

[ This is it, she's resigned herself. She's going to have her first kiss on this mattress. A game of chicken gone too far, that's the story she'll have to tell.

Well, even if that's the case, it's still more tame than what almost happened in that shed during Spring Break, by miles, but, she can't help but go flush. ]

[ That Tsubasa looked away already shows that, for the "game," Nachetanya has won. She found the limit. She remains there, close to the other, and she actually does lean in more, breaking the distance between them. Their upper bodies press together, but she doesn't go in for the other's lips. Instead she leans in to whisper her answer. ]

I want to see a world at peace, and see what that can look like. I know that isn't a satisfying answer, but that's what consumes me. In that world, perhaps I would like to fall in love, though.

I...I see.

[ It takes her a moment to even process that; more than her chest pounding, her temples are flaring, the onset of a migraine that strains behind her eyes. She's almost too focused on the sudden headache to focus on the fact that their bodies are touching, now, that Nachetanya is whispering again-- ]

That's...a very noble goal, Nachetanya. It's a satisfying answer to me. More than satisfactory.

[ And she means that. ]

It does make me seem a lot more grand than I am.

[ Still whispered, still close. She uses her one arm to reach out and brush the side of Tsubasa's face, perhaps a little bit too familiar, too playful. ]

Should I ask my next question?

You just did.

[ The gesture would be romantic if it weren't so obviously just an attempt to harp on her reaction. ]

...But I'll let you ask another one, since you clearly have something on your mind.

[ She knows this question might lead to a darker path, same as some things in her profile. But if Tsubasa wanted them to know each other, it can't all be their game or their hobbies. Besides, Tsubasa probably has bigger questions for her too ]

Why did your dislikes include "being home?"

[ ...Game over, then. ]

Because I don't like spending time at home. After school, every day, I spend time at the library until it closes. And on weekends and holidays, when the library is closed, I go on strolls through town.

[ She's aware that she's repeating herself, here. ]

I try to only stay there for as long as I have to be.

[ There's more to that, of course there is. ]

It would be unfitting for me to ask "why?" After all, you have your own question to ask.

[ Why does there have to be? ]

I do. You can ask your "why" after I'm done with my question, but if that'll be the case, I'll ask something relevant. You're not foolish, Nachetanya. I think you have an idea of the situation.

[ Despite her migraine, despite her pounding chest, despite the fact that they're still close like this, a hair's breadth away, in their outfits...Tsubasa sounds calm and cool, all over again.

Or, a better word would probably be "detached". ]

I want to know about your family.

[ Because Tsubasa isn't shallow, and there's no way that every single one of her likes and dislikes could be so shallow as that. She ... exhales. She should have expected that. Actually, no, more accurately: she did ]

I have a father, mother, and older brother. There are some relatives in other countries, but... I've not met most of them, and Piena's ministers don't consider it a good idea for us to get in contact with them. My older brother, Clyetum, died when I was fairly young. I don't actually have too many memories of him. My mother, Rashetanya, actually passed a little later than than that, so she's gone now too. As for my father...

[ which, of course, is the root of this question ]

His name is Nalphtum, and he's the king of the Piena, though that's now almost in name only. Six years ago, he went mad and declared that heretical religious cults that worshipped the Evil God had taken root in Piena, and began a great purge of numerous citizens and aristocrats. Eventually, his delusion was so great that he deemed that I was a heretic as well. I was banished from the palace and my family, and he named the prince of another country as his heir. When he put out a bounty for my head or the heads of other "heretics," a civil war erupted in Piena as people wanted to claim the bounty and gain a high title at court.

[ . . . ]

Eventually, the people who had supported me came out on top during that conflict. My father is still on the throne, but he's now a mere puppet: the Prime Minister and the Head Priest now run everything, and "Augustra" was added to my name to show that I'm the undisputed heir apparent when my father passes.

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...I see.

[ For a father to call for the death of his own daughter...even if he had went mad, she can't imagine what that time must have been like for Nachetanya. And while she's grateful that Nachetanya is still here to tell the tale, to essentially have divided her country (which, she reminds herself, is no small or weak territory by any means...)

It must have been a brutal thing to go through. To see your father turn into something hysterical before your very eyes...

Tsubasa pulls herself back up, to face her properly. Her position is a bit of a strain on her back, but it's only proper to meet her gaze correctly, if this is the road they're to go down.

She reaches for her arm and takes her hand in both of hers. Her breath is even, her tone soft. ]

I'm sorry to hear about your mother and brother. ...And your father, of course, and your people. But most of all, I'm sorry for you, that you had to go through such a horrible thing.

[ But she knows how brutal family can be. Transmitter-san had said that family gives you strength, but, Tsubasa still doesn't think that's entirely true.

They're just supposed to. ]

...My mother gave birth to me when she was somewhere close to my age, from what I can tell. My father was absent my whole life; I don't even know who he is, or have any idea what his name could be. But when I was very young, my mother married another man, my first step-father. I only have a vague recollection of him, but my recollection of my mother is even more vague, because she took her own life when I wasn't older than three. My step-father, at the time, eventually became engaged to another woman, my step-mother, and when he passed away, she met my current step-father and married him when I was around seven years old. It's a bit of a complicated family tree, a mess of a string of marriages and re-marriages, but those two strangers, so far divorced beyond my father and mother, are more or less the only real family I've ever known, the only ones I was really old enough to remember distinctly.

[ She wants to keep it to the facts, like she did during the trial, but... ]

They only let me stay with them as a means of keeping up appearances. Neither of them had wanted to face the scandal of abandoning an orphan, but behind closed doors, they...can't stand the sight of me. On good days, it's as if I don't exist. It's like I'm an invisible guest in my own home, and I don't even have a room to call my own. On bad days, they react violently to my presence. When I try to de-escalate the situation, it simply makes it worse, so...on some nights, when I know that staying there would make things worse, I simply don't come home, and sleep in the park or somewhere under the stars.

[ She speaks of it impassively, as if she's relating a rumor she heard, as if she's divorced from the situation herself. Not a hint of sadness, or anger, or disgust strains at her voice. She just continues to hold her hand and speaks calmly. She hasn't told this to anyone before, but... ]

...Obviously, this doesn't leave this room.

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[ Nachetanya sits up too. She doesn't pull off the other, but goes once more into the straddling position, holding her hand the whole time. Of course given Tsubasa has her hands around Nachetanya's one she can't quite pull her up, but she does tr to coax her into sitting up - Nachetanya can then scoot to allow for that better. After all, this is a somewhat more serious talk.

Her eyes swim a little as she processes this, both the words and her tone of voice. she inhales, exhales... And she wishes he had another hand to touch her with. In lieu of that, she leans her head forward to press their foreheads together. ]

I remember sleeping on the ground, looking up at the stars while the civil war happened. During that time, I wished and dreamed of nothing more than being able to sleep without the fear of death looming over me.

[ She says this sympathetically. To afford the same sort of ... well, she expects Tsubasa to relate, really, and Nachetanya is saying she understands. ]

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