Oh, some say, in life, you're gonna get what you give - but some things only God can forgive

[georgeous]

[ It's quiet in the hospital after this trial. Time passes and there are no notes slipped under doors.

The eerie silence reflects the horrors that have been witnessed today. More than any other week, there is a lingering understanding that there are thing regrouping and cooperation will never be able to fix.

There are 7 dead to mourn. No amount of funeral will bring them back.

The rules George has posted to the kitchen at the start of the week have been kicked over. ]

((ooc: This is not a week for any amount of partying, no matter how little, so here is the after-moping. Tell us where your character mopes, group together to mope together, etc...))

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[cthulwho]

I see...

[...]

I wouldn't be able to imagine such an experience, no... But, this place has been a continuous exercise in foreign feelings.

[cadmiums]

Right, you said you had talking to others before. I think you've grown a lot, Lovecraft.

[cthulwho]

G-Grown? How so...?

[He asks it, but deep down he gets where Ryoji is coming from. He'd been the same way for so long, the strange sensations he's been having have been all the more noticeable. He just hadn't seen it as growth.]

[cadmiums]

You've talked to everyone here, haven't you? And you have friends now too!

[cthulwho]

I... Yes. Yes, you are right...

[Conversations come much easier nowadays, certainly. That is what being stuck with people does, it seems.

And...friends. As he reflects on that, his expression grows pained once more. He does agree that he made friends here, but...he also lost some, for the first time.]

[cadmiums]

Mm, I know it can be painful but...I like to think it's worth it. Everything that's happened has been worth it, for the experiences and memories we've gained along the way.

[cthulwho]

[Lovecraft's silence in this case is certainly more of a stunned silence.]

...That too, is a very human thing to say.

[And for how indifferent to humans and their views of existential importance he claims to be, his tone seems to imply he isn't being judgmental that Ryoji has embraced such things after becoming one.]

[cadmiums]

I used to say stuff like that a lot before I remembered who I was, and I honestly didn't ever think I would believe in things like that ever again. But as horrible as this place is, it's given me hope after I thought I had lost it.

[cthulwho]

[...]

I...think I can understand that. I did come to...become closer to humans than I thought I ever would, because of this place. [So maybe he really did grow? He still doesn't know if this is growth.] As much as I want to regret that development, I...

[He knows he doesn't. Succumbing to regret would mean he would be dismissing everything he had with Sakura as not worth enduring pain for. It's...essentially what Ryoji said. Perhaps he does have a point there.]

[cadmiums]

[ Here's something he rarely had the opportunity for here, but he takes it right away. ]

-but you don't regret it, right? We're not the same type of being but... I think we feel feel similarly in this instance. It's a good thing Lovecraft, even if it makes you feel conflicted at times. That's proof that it's worth it all the more-- good things don't come easy.

[cthulwho]

...I do not.

[Good things don't come easy...

For once, he thinks perhaps that's okay and not a chore. Not matter the amount of effort.

After a moment, he nods.]

I will take your word for it. [...] Thank you, Ryoji.